Wow I cant believe where time has gone! The days just seem to be rolling into one another.

When Jack is sleeping we are trying to sleep – me more so than Lee as I am the one doing the night time feeds as Lee is heading back to work next week and no point in us both being shattered during the night.

He is no longer a silent sleeper – we think he has really bad wind/colic as he seems to be struggling to bring up the wind or pump it out lol but when he does he’s totally fine. The last 2 nights have been really exhausting = he is taking a wee growth spurt so feeding more and taking more in a bottle.

I am still trying to get him to breastfeed but he is just not interested in it all even though he is making an effort to try and latch but once he is there is doesn’t quite grasp that he has to work for his supper – unlike the bottle as yeah ok he still needs to suck the teat to get it to flow but not as hard work involved as it would be on the breast.

I was realy upset a few days before getting home form hospital as I really wanted to be able to breastfeed but its not as easy as it sounds or made out to be and because Jack’s weight is an issue formula was the best way to ensure that he got enough food to help him pile on the weight and because that is done by bottles its harder to introduce the breast as he is used to the bottlel. I am however trying to express milk when I can and give it to him via bottle which he is taking as well as formula. Manageing to get anywhere between 30 – 60 mls at one time so thats pretty good but he still needs a top up of formula of some amount.

The midwife is happy with Jack and myself and my wound is healing just nicly – there is a section just under my belly button that when I touch the skin I cant feel anything, again such a weird feeling! The surgeon managed to not take the top of the stalk of my cherry tattoo – you can see where he has made a wee detour to avoid cutting it – bless! So my tattoo is intact and I have a nice scarl.  It is much longer than I thought and once it fully heals its going to be a nice neat scar. Got the palmers scar and streatch mark lotion handy to put on onces its healed to make the scar less noticiable. Not that anyone other than Lee is going to see is anyway.

We have got so many gifts and Jack’s wardrobe is looking much more healthier than mine and Lee’s put togther – there are loads that he will grow into so that great we dont need to buy new clothes for a wee while.

I on the other hand can now fit back into lots of my pre-bump clothes. My stomach has practically disappeard even though I am now left with a definate “apron fold” but after 6 weeks I can exercise so I intend to get my stomach back into shape *fingers crossed* – it feels really weird right now as there is no muscle tone or anything right now and is kinda flabby for all there isnt much there.  I do miss my bump I’m going to be honest, I miss feeling it move and stuff.

Well I’m off the now got friends visiting in an hour and going to get Jack fed and changed before then

~x~